There has been so much that has happened to us over the past year, that I don't want to forget anything. That is why I have decided to jump on this bandwagon and try out blogging for a while. I have some awesome friends who blog and I just love to see how they "scrapbook" their lives on the internet from day to day. I have always liked to keep up with things, but now with a baby on the way (I am almost 12 weeks along) I feel that it is imperative that I begin this journey and never look back.
First, I would like to say hello to 2012. 2011 was a tough, tough year. We, as a family, had to endure so much loss and pain over that year. In January, I went to see Dr. Greco because of the severe pains that I was experiencing in my abdominal area. He took out my IUD and then performed a surgery in February to "clean me out" to say the least. March came along and we decided to start trying for a baby. Uncle Tim came home and Oh what Joys filled our Souls!!! April strolled along and we got a postive sign, but within a day or two it faded to negative. Must have been a chemical pregnancy or what they call a spontaneous abortion. But April also began many other journeys that I didn't even realize we would have to be on. Daddy went into the hospital on April 5, 2011. This was our first hospital admission in quite sometime, but little did we know it wouldn't be our last. 2 days later sweet baby Gibson, Shane and Jamie's new little boy, came into our lives! Again, April came with many, many ups and downs. Daddy continued to be in and out of the hospital until May. Bo and I were not trying too hard for a baby due to taking care of daddy. We just were putting that on hold. Dad came home with hospice, which I was never prepared for and still can barely speak about that experience without tearing up. A few weeks later I began cramping severely at dad's house. Mom went to get a pregnancy test because she thought I might be pregnant. Well, surprise - I was! I wasn't doing very well with taking care of myself during that time because all I wanted to do was take care of my daddy! So -sadly, we lost that baby too! This miscarriage just took a really long time to complete.
So, then June came along and Daddy decided he had had enough. He decided he was too tired to continue the fight so he went to Heaven sometime during the night of June 20th or either early morning on June 21st - but they pronounced him on June 21st. This was the hardest thing I have ever endured in my life. I never knew the hurt that losing a parent could cause. I NEVER want to experience that hurt again. Thank God my mom is really healthy.
Well, the next couple of months were just a blur. I blocked people out of my life. I consumed myself with work and church responsibilities. Sadly, I don't even remember half of what I did during the later part of the year.
But then a great thing happened. Let me back up - In April, I also quit my 6 year position with the company that I had worked for in order to help take care of daddy. I took a contract position and worked whatever hours I needed to so that I could be with my dad as much as possible. In September, a friend at the contract position was looking for a job, so I decided to help her. I found an awesome postition for me instead!!! I applied and have been working for this AWESOME company ever since! 2 1/2 months down!
The last battle we had in 2011 as an entire family came one tragic night when my brother's girlfriend wanted him to look at her gun. The gun misfired and he has ended up back facing more charges due to his previous convictions. So sad, but God always has a plan.
I didn't forget to tell you about my family. That was just all the sadness of 2011 rolled into a quick summary. I have a great husband - who of course sometimes we don't always get along, but we love each other so deeply! I have a soon to be 9 year old son....who I believe God gave to me to save my life and start my life fresh. I also have a soon to be 4 year old son.....who is just a little HAM! He is too funny! Lastly, we have a sweet baby on the way! God knew when it would be a good time. He always has a plan for us, we just have to be patient and wait on HIM.
So with all this said - I begin my new journey as a blogger in 2012! I may back date and tell you more about my story. I never want to forget anything ever again!